Uncertainty

How do you expect me to sit here and believe you, given all the endless uncertainties you bring to the table. You get my hopes up and then you take them away in one single blow. You lead me on, you make me believe that we will find a palce in this big wide world one day but then you go and mess up. I can’t keep getting pulled so far into a dark hole that you constantly dig up. It’s so UNFAIR andI don’t deserve that! I've been nothing but loyal and provided a real foundation for a beautiful future but you continue to jeapordize that and leave me in a state of confusion. How much longer do you expect me to stick around? How many times do you think you can continue to do this to me?

Could it be that you like this feeling so much? Do you like hurting me and pushing me into that hole? You may say no but honestly the uncertainty in my head is too loud to listen to anything else! Honestly I don’t know whats up or down anymore. My head keeps spinning and no matter how HARD I try to climb out of the hole, I keep falling in! I’m shattered and I don’t know where to go from here. I’m so uncertain about you, your feelings for me and about our future and it’s NOT a GREAT feeling! I’m seriously contemplating us and what we have because you’ve really done it this time but I’m just so uncetatin about everything and can’t decide what to do. Which is the right path for us? Where do we go from here? Is the end coming or has it been here this whole time?